me 2

      
       As promise I'm going to deliver the me part 2 . I guess i miss out quite a lot about me other than that i have a crush who i shall not name , i think he knows that i like him from but he does show his interested in me and occasional he flirt with me .I think ...
 That the think hes not clear about everything and likes him . I think hes cute is it offensive to describe a guy as cute but i just think hes cute and everything . 

       And you know its his lost if he misses me but at same time i don't think it will make s difference even if he confesses since for now my goal is my education i think well in addition i want to find myself .

       Like who am i ?what do i want to do with my life? Is my goal really what i want to do with my life ?

       Life is awfully short and i want to make the most of it doing what makes me happy making sure i don't leave regret . That is a aweful way to die having regret and everything so i prefer to do what i want than regretting i did it rather than regret not doing anything .

       The main  thing is i want to be happy . My belief mainly revolving around don't let others put you down , i think if i feel that something in my gut is correct I'm gotta do it even if it means going against everyone. 

        some people may think im arrogant and stuff but the reality is that you yourself are important and you have to love yourself to be able to love others .

      I think I'm very important and i love myself too among other thing that i am crazy about . And not a lot of people think like that they constantly beat themselves down and the only one that is gotta stop is themselves . 

      If i am hurting because i follow what everyone tells me what to do then you know what.  screw everyone 

        you know what i actually have a checklist on what im gotta do before i die and everything so here the list :

1. wear a wedding gown . once in a life time you should at least wear it and if im dying that would be my dying wish . I  know it sounds so dreamy but you know , i personally feel that wedding gown is the most beautiful dress a woman can have in her life . 

   you will know what wedding gown is the right dress as long as you lay eyes on it and this was the most beautiful dresses for now base on yahoo .

   whenever i see wedding gown i feel that the people will magically transform into the most beautiful happiest woman ever with the right guy and the right dress.

2. find a guy that loves me more than i love him . I want the kind of love that will stay by me just like the song . someone to  stay by you even when your whole world is collapsing and tell you that you dont have to be alone . That kind of love is precious .......

3. have a movie Marathon with all the movie i ever loved which is alot . 
At home with the air con on and junk food like bugger or what ever i like to have at that point in time .     

     just so you know i hate popcorn , i have no idea when i started to dislike it but i just kinda not like it at a certain point in my life .

     I generally prefer action movies and my favorite until now is Total recall . i love it its really thrilling and keeps my heart thumping rapidly .
 hmm..maybe i should do a movie review in comparison with the that was produce on 1990s and the 2012 which i loved .i  generally find the male lead actor  more appealing than the one in 1990s . 

    Thats about it but from time to time i will post blog about me and what really defines me and in some point i can look back and know that how much i have grew these past few years . One last thing , the person that inspires me to start a blog of my own is xia xue . she is really hard to describe and her blog is really good but nowadays she doesn't really blog much so a little let down . 



 

The people that i genuinely detest and scumbag that deserve to rot in hell

   
         Like seriously the title of this entry sounds like I'm gotta talk about my crush but no that's not it . I'm gotta write about this girl that has a b with a itch seriously she likes to freaking push my buttons like cross my line thats not suppose to be cross for no freaking business  and she hates me and i hate her too .
 look feelings do reciprocate!

 Her name is WJ short form because should i waste freaking precious time writing  her name she have been  pissing - teasing-irritating-bossing   me for the past 3 years its still on going . i mean she not my freaking mom yet she just love to do that . And i was the first person that talk to her in school so some times when i think about it i was like what the hell is wrong with this world . Anyways i have no idea why she hate but she does and well me being a kind -loving person will defiantly reciprocate her feeling .

                My goals for  myself with this type of situation  is to react quickly and say something smart to people that tease me in a really b with a itchy way . whatever i guess i should thank god that she is not with me in same  .  It just irritate the hell out of me  just by writing her name although its in  Short form .  I'm not a sunshine girl that goes oh my hater is my supporter or whatever shit . I'm a generally positive person but not that  positive its like asking a person to forgive a person to forgive someone that just stab them . well , words hurt so try to relate . Though its not hard for me to imagine killing her a trillion times in my head if i were to do it real life i would probably have to go to prison and it so totally not Worth it . like why should i serve sentence , hypnotically speaking, because i killed the b with a itch that i hate and plus her body would be totally heavy and troublesome to discard and its disgusting too with all the blood and stuff . so I'm just gotta let her age to death and let karma do the work .  Although she not on top of my i never want to speak to them list but lately she pisses me off and that totally inspire me to tell you how "beautiful" a person can get . 

             And she is not the most "gorgeous"person i seen in my life this guy he bullied me . I remember he hit me with a paddle accusing i wasn't  paddling hard enough and obviously how can a guy and a girl match up to strength but  i tried . He think i wasn't trying and hitter me constantly and curse my family to die and all sorts of really awefull things , i wanted to get away but im in a middle of the seas where can i escape ?I was trapped . It was a really traumatic event and everytime i think of it i get emotional and terrified his in my class and siting quite close to where my sit is its really disgusting how ugly can human get ? I genuinely think he should rot in hell . I did report this to the teacher but like i say the teacher will just reply "i will talk to him" and nothing is ever done that's is why i think if you bullied stand up for yourself be the change . I want to encourage people like me and even me to start being the change instead of hoping for someone to stop it or even kill yourself . I will not kill myself because they hate me for being me and that they think i deserve to be bullied I don't think a scumbag is worth my life and i will be the change  .

             
      Back to to the b with a itch . Since its kinda of difficult to imagine what sort of person she is I'm gotta just post her picture on my blog .  just kidding .. never gotta happen my blog is sacred and she not sacred .
i generally see her like the pest which i hate which is cockroaches which is disgusting .i know it doesn't bite but that thing i swear its evil and ewww ..
 I'm gotta stop thinking of all those haters/bullies its wasting my brain cells . so this concludes everything on her i guess theres a special connection between her and me sometimes i want show her the middle finger and just say " get of my back you b with a itch " 

      lately girls been really hands on and even for myself as a girl it scares me a little bit . Gosh .... girls these days are violent and very extremely hands on you know . I'm sorry guys i have no idea why its like that .

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so my next entry would be on me part 2 i guess i think maybe who knows or other random topic i decided to write .
 I gotta end of with a quote " no one can truly save you are on your own " 
can you save a person that seeks death constantly  ? can you save someone from them self ?
The answer is no .
To be honest im really glad theres true man out there the one that i just describe it is not a guy .It doesn't deserve to be call a guy because there is no gut in that person and the fact that it  feels no guilt hitting a girl .

-love, hugs katherine

my bother

                  This entry is about my awesome brother that never fails to piss me off . The fact that he likes to get on my nerve and soon needing my help is kinda pathetic and cute  . I think in his heart he knew that after pissing me off he will soon get it , but it never fails to allow him to think about his action. I'm basically a person that holds grudge so if you piss you are gotta get it someday .

             Though it depends sometimes i forgets about things that aren't all that important a whole different thing .so i kinda person that don't remembers people s names especially those that aren't really have relations with me like my bully . you know a funny thing is that i actually need too put in effort to remember his names Cox his not all that close to me which is kinda funny thought but all in all his a bitch and a ass hole .

            so to all those jerks and bitches  that bullied me and call me  you better pray that forgets or else you gotta get it somehow .god i sound so pathetic , but nevertheless my sibling knew that  have a base line that are not to be mess with . the thing is I'm a sorta lazy person too so maybe i will get back people when the opportunity comes because don't you think its really hard work planning a revenge . For example theres this television shoe=w called revenge that features a woman that is out for revenge toe avenge for his dad and i was watching the show and i thought its really tiring by the way . 

so now I'm not a really a big fan of revenge but a little payback once in a while is not bad but that every time i get scorch free from conscious . plus well sometimes i guess thing don't always go like you plan and all that stuff , i kinda prefer leaving it to karma's hands on a certain extent though but sometimes if you cant wait just shove a punch in his face or find a way to make him suffer .i personally don't think that death is the ultimate thing if you want to revenge , its about making life a living hell altogether . Imagine every living second regretting and being torture by karma until you cant take it and breaks down . oh god i sound so sadistic in a way maybe i have the talent to be like some exterminate or some stuff but that would never happen . lets just say  that sport ain't a big fan of me and is I'm trap, in some worst case scenario i probably near a bear grills at hand if i have any way of surviving . Jesus how did i end up  talking about  my brother  to revenge and then to me being a sadist to me surviving worst case scenario  . I'm a genius aren't I !!?

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so i know my writing isn't gorgeous but improving practise make perfect .will keep updating even if no ones reading my blog stuff and i sound pathetic .bye
-Katherine

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